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Horses of Valor, my part

Posted on Mar 12th, 2007 by mary : untitled mary

Horses of Valor
(parts up til now!)

horses of valor



I saw one of them stand up sudden and look our way. Quick as a flash, I bolted up a cloud canyon, driving hard for the top. A quick look behind and I saw we all moved as one, winged lightning shooting sparks from our heels. We needed to regroup and plan our next move.

The expanse of sky at the top was so sudden and so immense it took my breath away.  I stretched my wings to slowly parachute to settle into a delicate poise on --- wait! Wings? Cool! Huge, white, iridescent wings, that sparkled like the snow I saw at Christmas last year at gramma and grampa's! They cupped and hung on the air and slid around just like my hand hanging out the car window, only better, not so hard.

As I wondered at these new features I almost didn't notice that the cloud canyon had closed behind us and there we were, suspended just a few feet over an endless ocean that shimmered slow-motion to the horizon, splashing with tiny rainbows that sparkled hard, like diamonds. The immensity hit me hard, like a smack on the back of my head when I was sneaking something and thought no one was looking. I never knew anything so big, except one night on the prairie with grampa, he showed me the stars and I thought I would fall forever - I was so scared!

But Grampa caught me by telling me the names of the constellations and it wasn't so easy to fall anymore. Even though sometimes I wanted to. But I can't unlearn what I know. I hate that! I try and try to remember before I knew how to talk and I can't, and it makes me mad! Like something got lost that I need but I can't remember what it was -- like forgetting my dreams, gone so quick, like smoke or fog or magic.

I could see two beautiful horses with wings beside me. I knew it was my sister and Celeste, our friend up the street, really our sister, too - but a blood sister, because we took a sacred oath and knicked our palms and smeared the blood together to bond us forever, no matter what. And we mean it, too! I hate it when grown-ups smile like they mean it while they look at each other all secret like and roll their eyes. Grrr!

Anyway, I could see they were as freaked as me, and totally captive to the magical place we somehow popped into. Peering toward the west, I saw something that didn't move with the clouds. Somehow, part of me telescoped real close for a second, then I collapsed back to my body. Whoa! I didn't know I could do that! But I saw the island, like a big round boulder, not too far away. I thought it might be a good place to get ready for camp, as the sun was edging lower a lot faster than I expected. Something about the rarified altitude, like Grampa says every time he takes us back to the airport in Denver. My Grampa knows everything, just like he says.

I snorted and pawed in that direction, nodding up and down. The others were in agreement and off we went, racing the wind and each other, laughing and tumbling off the spongy clouds, like foam blocks under the trampoline at the Y. We all clambered onto the smooth granite rock, half climbing, half hopping up to the top, where we saw the sun exploding in orange and pink and purple and the sky turned to turqouise. We could see forever!

Looking down, all we could see was ocean, way below through some wispy clouds you could see tiny whitecaps on shiny steel, dark and scary, like the barrel of mom's Ruger. It was already dark down there, and not pretty at all! Flashes we thought might be lightning and the faint roll of thunder came from below. It was eery, and I began to feel a little dizzy, somehow remorseful, like my mom was missing me real bad. Maybe it was that odd shade of deep blue, the kind that slices right through you in that space between the sunset and the stars. It's weird how colors turn into feelings, somehow.

A light wind picked up my mane and brought me back to our predicament. My confidence was a little shook, but I wasn't going to show it. I puckered my face like real serious to make it look like I knew what to do. I was hoping something would come up before they caught on how scared I was. I turned away, like enjoying the sunset, and thought hard.

The boys were down there somewhere, close to the ocean. I wondered if they were caught in the storm, and if they were as scared as me. I hoped so! I am told I am a mean little snot, but another part of me always wants to be good. Go figure. I don't know which part gets madder! I just know, boys and grownups drive me nuts.

Well, one thing I know: if we're stuck out here, I want a fire! Even if I am a horse. Suddenly, I noticed I was sitting, cross-legged, and the horses were whickering softly in the darkness behind me. They sounded content, but Celeste and Beth, back in their people-bodies, look as startled as me! What in the world? I notice a the sillhouette of a tent behind them, and inside a lantern and sleeping bags, all laid out. And was that a bowl of popcorn?

to be continued...
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Virginia : Kite Flyer
about 2 hours later
Virginia said

Awesome. I've always wondered what goes on in that lovely blond head. Dreams within  dreams within dreams. And horses. Of course.

mary : untitled
about 3 hours later
mary said

hehe ;-)

Dryad : Coming Home
about 4 hours later
Dryad said

I cried. Not because I was scared, but because I was Beth. The colors in the sky and the flying in my throat. I wasn't scared when Grandpa showed me the stars, but I cried then too. Nancy is not a mean little snot, but she is fierce. That is a kind of being brave. Sometimes she has to be brave for both of us, especially when there are colors in the sky and I have to be Beth. Nancy can't remember before she could talk, but I can, cause sometimes I still go like that. And for a long time Nancy and me talked another language that no one else knew. Sometimes we remember it. I remembered it in the sky today. Or maybe that was Moonbeam and she was, you know, talking to a moonbeam. Is the sun that comes down right in the middle of the day a Noonbeam? I'm gonna go play with words now!

mary : untitled
about 5 hours later
mary said

And see, that's the thing about my sister: it's like she has no skin. One time I watched a butterfly coming out of its shell, and every little move looked like it hurt. It shivered all over, like it was still wet, and its wings were all rolled up like a cigar.

Beth stood looking up at it, against that crazy blue sky, and she was crying and shivering too. In that moment I knew she needed protection more than me – that she rolls and tumbles somehow on the inside and you can see every feeling on her face. Sometimes, when she laughs, I fill up with so much feeling my heart wants to bust.

But me, I'm six-gun Sal – at least that's what Grampa calls me. I never cry if I can help it! At least, not where people can see…

Because if I was truthful, I would say I cry pretty easy, too. But I hide it good. I will never forget how they all laughed that time I was six and I fell off the pony someone brought to some stupid church-picnic. They didn't tell me he liked to rare and buck, and his mouth was so hard he couldn't even feel the bit. The other kids haw-haw'd and said I rode like a girl and cried like a sissy, but I hurt so bad wanted to die inside, and I cried from pure mad. That was when I learned about the inside-bruises that nobody really cares about and nobody will kiss and make better. Not even my mom. She just told me to stop whining.

So that's when those brats learned they better not laugh if they don't want a bloody nose! I don't care if they are bigger than me.

And if anyone ever laughs at Beth like that I will hurt them!  I will!

about 17 hours later
Peridot said

hey, I am so with you! I always knew that you and I had more in common than I could ever imagine! Blood sisters! You, me - and Beth! I still dream about you guys - did you know that? I'm so glad I found you again!

Those brats better not laugh at you - cuz I'll push them over! I'll push them over and then jump on them and ooooh the ultimate torture: I'll tickle them until they cry for MERCY!
Most people think this is wooosy… but I know it's torture!

and yeah, if anyone laughs at Beth - they are so much in BIG trouble - cuz Beth is so, well, she's so cool… and well, so wonderful! We know!

mary : untitled
1 day later
mary said

!!! ;-)

Stacy : too real
1 day later
Stacy said

Woah… Took me a WHILE to “get” all of this… But it’s COOL! Keep going, please? You all have such cool imaginations… And whatever. Hehe. :) LOVE it!!

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